dreaming for this city.

He's the God of this City. He's the God of THIS city. He's the God of YOUR city. wherever you are, He is the God of this city. think about it. this captivates my heart. and then the song goes on to say "greater things are YET to come. Greater things! light of the darkness. hope to the hopeless. peace to the restless. there is Noone like our God.  the lord has been stirring my heart, giving me such a love for this city. and let me tell you, it is definetely a heart change from the lord, because all i could ever dream about doing before was getting out of rochester and far away from it!
this new heart is causing me to dream. big. look at what might happen if the lord were to break forth like this city has never seen before. like our eyes have never seen before.
In rochester, we have the great and amazing Mayo Clinic. we have major influence. major medical influence. people coming from ALL over the world. prestigious, royalty, anyone who seeks further medical help that can't get it from where they are in the world, come to rochester! these are people who are basically coming to us as their "only hope" or "last chance". we also have IBM (international business machines). again, people coming from all over to work and train for this company.  its a big deal.
this means that our city is kind of like a "melting pot" in a sense. people from every culture coming here! We have major influence in so many ways. If God were to come and drop His glory on our city, it could transform the world! like a domino effect. His glory spreads throughout the city, touches doctors and nurses who are directly working with patients, which then hits the patients, which then the patient carries the presence of God with them to their hometown or country. like a domino effect. god brings revival, it then spreads through the world. this is what im dreaming about and praying for. since i've been a little girl, this has been the cry of my heart. to see this domino effect happen throughout the world. Jesus says "every tribe and toungue will bow down and worship the lord. YES! yes!
with this dream, i dream for downloads and revelations to doctors. i dream and truely believe in my heart that there is a cure for cancer. i know that extensive research is being done, and there are a lot of theories, but i believe that God gives us all gifts and talents, and for those amazing medical professionals, He will download amazing clues and cures for incureable diseases and cancers. rochester is the brewing place for this.
If God came and wrecked this city for Him and His glory, just think of the endless possibilities of what could happen. my mind is racing thinking about it.
there are so many people that need jesus. this world needs more of jesus. so much more. i want to see this happen. I can only be responsible for myself and my actions and walk with God. but I encourage you all to just pray with me everyday for this movement to happen. for this city. for this world.
i was just talking today with someone, and we were talking about "acts of love". and we came to the conclusion that the small acts of love are always the most beautiful and thoughtful acts of love and care. im not just talking a romantic relationship kind of love. im talking about the love that you can show on a daily basis to the homeless man on the corner, or the checkout lady at target....etc. its the smile that can make the world of difference to someone. or inviting them to church; shows you care. this is something i have been more conscious of doing. the small things. it can be anything that involves putting someone else before you, their needs before your needs. even giving a sandwhich to the lady that holds the sign saying "anything helps". there are endless ways. its the small things. the small things can lead to the big things. when we are the hands and feet of the lord, that can lead to the big thing. people's perspectives changing on "christians" because we are showing them love, instead of only preaching love.
prayer. prayer can be a small thing in your mind, but in reality, in the kingdom, it is our most powerful weapon! so pray for the small things, pray for the big things. just pray. just be in constant communication with your God. there is nothing better than this.
i am babbling now.  i can be done now.
my heart burns for this. He is the God of This City. Greater things are YET to come. praise god.

breaking the alabaster box

its been such a good week of pressing in for the more! more of the presence of God in my life. more of His heart for this city. more of His beauty in me so that it overflows onto others. more more more! i cant get enough of Him this week. A lot of revelations of love, purpose, and even more understanding and clarity of why I am where I am right now.

lately, god has been allowing me to let him to be my everything. finding full satisfaction in Him. not just saying it, but believing and living out this full satisfaction in Jesus. for any of you who know me, this is a big deal. one of my biggest heart's desires is to meet my husband. get married. do ministry together. live life together. to meet the man that the lord created for me. i started becoming envious of couples who had been fortunate enough to meet their husbands. i had to bring this to the lord over and over again. was almost becoming an obsession. so my prayer was

(and still is) lord bring me my husband. please. you know the desires of my heart, so how come i am 24 and still not know him? over and over again this was my prayer. I also prayed that the lord would open my heart to what he wants to show me,

without me even asking the lord to show me this specific thing, he did. god is good. he has brought me on this road of discovering full satisfaction in Him and him alone! for real. (to be honest, i was actually afraid to pray that the lord would bring me full satisfaction in Him, because I thought if I did find full satisfaction in Jesus first and foremost, and admit that I don't need a husband, then the lord would find no need to have me get married. silly? yes.

the lord has been showing me what it is to be the woman He created me to be. fully satisfied with where i am right now, instead of being so ready to move on, find my husband, be done with school etc. but enjoy the process. the process of becoming the true woman that god intended me to be. women are not born women. we become women when we become who He wants us to be. it takes a lot of yeilding and recognizing that we will not ever be fully satisfied until we realize we are complete in Jesus, and Jesus alone.

God is such a good and gracious God that He gives us all these other pleasures such as marriage, children, frienships, great carreers, wealth...on the side or in addition to our lives. To experience all these pleasures while already satisfied fully in Jesus is the ultimate!!! None of these things without Jesus can fully satisfy you. To be on the road of finding full satisfaction in these elements will only leave your heart lonely and dissatisfied.

every year that has gone by that I have yet to find my husband, ive become a little more hopeless.

I always remember my mom telling me when i was a little girl that "No man will ever complete you". sure they bring joy, fun, etc. but only full satisfaction comes from Jesus FIRST. i thought she was crazy. but the older i become, the more i realize how true this is.

I cannot wait for the day I am introduced to my husband and get to marry my best friend. He will be the cherry on top of the chocolate peanut butter sundae :) Its normal to think this way. god designed us to be this way. The thought of advancing the kingdom of God with my husband makes me smile among all the other joys that come with marriage and intimate relationship.

As for now, I am truely enjoying where I am in my life. For the first time in a while, I am content, happy, and thriving with where I am. Seriously just loving this stage in my life. Being a student, having a relatively easy job where I get to serve people everyday, helping with Source, developing new friendships, training for 1/2 marathon.. etc. the pleasures and joy that the little things in life bring.

I am breaking my alabaster box at the feet of Jesus. because He is worth it, He deserves it. Everyday pressing into God to be the woman he created and destined me to be. proverbs 31 woman of dilligence, faith, purity, security, contentment, and patience.

He has good things for those who wait. so just love and enjoy the process he is taking you on.

once you experience this revelation, everything changes. :) how exciting.